You know that ache you get when you recognize that you've been focusing on the wrong things for too long?
Like the minutia of work, the laundry, the kids' activities, your manicured lawn...and then in one moment you realize that you've been spending a lot of time and energy on superficial shit that really doesn't matter.
Except that everyone else seems to be caring equally as much, so you're sort of a schmuck if you don't...right?
It's like we cultivate the schizophrenic behavior in each other. We see our neighbors mowing, edging, mulching, planting, 2,000 yard waste bags at the curb...we watch our co-workers scheduling meeting after meeting to 'fine tune' details on a project that really is auto piloting itself...and we listen to others as they stress about family coming into town for the Easter holiday, so we crank it up into over drive by washing windows and dusting base boards.
And before we know it...that sweet place that defines who we are, that nurtures us, that when cultivated lets us shine...becomes dull and muted. And we look pretty on the outside, but we're hollowed out on the inside.
What fuels your passion for life? What charges your batteries? What makes you feel alive? What gives you strength and makes you feel vibrant?
Whatever that is...do more of it...now. The windows and the lawn can wait. But your soul won't wait forever.