Tomorrow I run my first race. It's a five-mile trail run in the middle of January.
I've been running, but have yet to do five miles straight without walking, so I'm nervous. Like, really nervous.
And when I get anxious, I dream...technicolor style. Last night, I was running, running, and running and I was lost beyond belief. Alone and lost. Freaked out, I woke up and thought, "What the hell have I gotten myself into to?" And then I thought, "I can do this." "I can absolutely do this."
For good measure, I got some decent wool running socks, a good pair of gloves, and my hair colored this morning. Because, if I die and am found, I want to look good trying. Every woman knows exactly what I'm talking about. No one wants to be corpse-like with shitty roots.
Throughout this journey, I've adopted the mantra....Strong, Beautiful, Fearless....as my theme for 2012. The ball is rolling. The weight is coming off. My muscles are getting stronger. And, the fear is still there, but I'm slowly learning to leverage it to my benefit. And the stronger I get, the sexier, more beautiful that I feel, especially in the face of fear.
So, here's to the race tomorrow. You and I are doing this...one step at a time.