I've always fancied myself a planner.
In most scenarios, I try hard to conservatively predict the way that things will go...so, as to have a back-up plan when they don't.
However, the very best experiences, memories, and opportunities I've had in my life have come when I've truly given over my fear, hopes, expectations and desires to God. Rarely do I know what's best...nor, do I understand how the experience of today fits into the past or what the future has in store.
I have a really, really dear friend who is stepping out with all she has, in faith. In an attempt to be faithful, she's giving over her family situation, her home, her livelihood and their future plans to God. She figures, what do they have to lose? It was never really theirs to begin with and in the end, they're limited in their capacity to create...so, why not?
Her choice amazed me. I have always, always struggled with surrendering the desires of my heart. Somehow, I seem to think that I can make it work all on my own, if I just do this or that.
So, is it irresponsible to be guided by faith? Is it foolish to think that God knows better? Is it impossible to fully surrender?
And yet on the other hand, how much deeper, richer, more satisfying, joy-filled might our lives be if we chose to release and to simply believe?