Have you ever done that thing...
Where you say to yourself...I'll have just one...beer, piece of chocolate, handful of chips...
Or, that other thing where you say...I'll be really good once the holidays are over or when we get back from our trip or after I make the project deadline...then, I'll concentrate on doing the right thing.
And when you're doing that thing....that rationalization of indulgence...and all along, you're fully intending to get buzzed, to eat the whole bag of M&M's or to spend time doing something you shouldn't...you're thinking ugh, why do I always do this to myself?
And so the question is...what happens when it (fill in the blank) is not enough?
And why can some people live within the realm of moderation and others well, not so much?
Does it make you a bad person? Do you struggle with a character flaw?
Or is this the essence of what it means to be a human being?
And the sooner that we own our cravings/desires and work toward honoring the feelings connected to them...well, then are we on to something?
Because most of the time, it's not about the beer or the chocolate bar. Isn't it about being transported to a place not connected to the stress, exhaustion, predictability or blah of the current status quo?
And so the real question seems to be how to transport oneself to the fun, the spontaneous, the free...without feeling the shackles of the guilt in the interim. Because really, it's no fun if you're feeling bad about it in the process.