It had been an extraordinarily busy week.
And of course, I had a jam-packed weekend and could not fall back asleep after I woke up this morning at 2:30.
Today was race day. My last half marathon of the year and I was full of jitters.
I stumbled into the kitchen and turned on the coffee pot while I fumbled to light a candle and breathe.
Pouring mountains of cream into my coffee and dumping granola into my yogurt, I sat at the kitchen table and tried to remind myself that I'm stronger than I know and that I can endure and I will do this.
Here's me all anxious before we made the trek to Lincoln for the half.
Until, my three-year old, Claire quietly said, "I need to go to the bathroom," and then 2.2 seconds later, threw up all over the only outfit that I had for her...which seemed to cause a perpetual chain reaction for her brother and sister who began simultaneously screaming..."ROLL DOWN THE WINDOWS!!!! ....I THINK I'M GOING TO BE SICK!"
We high tailed it into a local fast food joint. My husband cleaned the car and I cleaned Claire.
With moments to spare, I made it to the start line a little frazzled, but equipped with plenty of hugs, kisses, prayers and encouragement from my fam. Lesson learned...no chocolate milk and iPad usage first thing in the morning on a long car ride.
Sans kids, I saddled up to the start line and thanked God for the beautiful weather, the amazing crowd and the fact that other than a yucky chaf wound from my camelbak, I was starting a race injury free. It was glorious.
The clock started. I clicked my Garmin. Turned up my tunes and started breathing through the fear.
The following are pics of me along the route...
Here's two miles in...
"Clearly, you can endure...Call Me!" and "Toenails are for Sissies," which was lovely given that I'm a pro at losing them.
All in all, I couldn't believe it, I was running like a rock star and feeling amazing. All of it was a gift. And then up and over a big hill and through the finish line...a medal and yummy food.
Here's my family...
So, now, I have to decide what to do in 2015. What races should I try? Another full? A different state? There's lots of options. While I may not know what the new year will bring me, I do know that pushing yourself outside of your comfort zone and staring fear in the face is an incredible gift. And for that reason alone, I'll always find myself at a starting line with the hope of crossing the finish line.
Thank you Good Life Halfsy. You were good to me.