Creatures of Impatience

We're all creatures of impatience.

We want what we want now.  It's just how we're made. 

So at the gym this morning, I turned to my girlfriend and said, "It's gonna happen, right?"  And she turned to me and spoke the truth, "If you stay the course, absolutely.  It's just a painfully slow process."  And, she's right.

For most anything in life, we just have to be willing to put the time in and to wait.  Typically its when we decide that we want to outrun the clock that we get messy.  We cut corners.  The quality of our work suffers. 

I know that I'll reap what I sow.  I'm just trying to figure out how to enjoy the journey, particularly when I can so clearly see the goal.  I know what she looks like.  I know what she feels like.  I know who she is.

And, so I'll continue to hearken back to the prayer I say each morning as the alarm goes off at 4:30am...please give me the strength to be patient and to believe in me.

Patience & Persistence

I've really got to pull my 'big girl' pants up and stop whining.

This morning, I trekked the 3 kids to the gym and started around the track.  My goal was to run 2 miles, walk 1 and then run the final 2.  Nice fantasy. 

Half-way through the first mile, my side started to ache, my pants felt like they were going to fall down (the joys of being in between sizes) and my confidence was plummeting.  So, I jumped on a treadmill and thought, "I'll finish this out here and be just fine."  That's of course, when I doomed myself.

It is so true that it takes moments to jump off the fitness band wagon and what feels like decades to get back on it...and in many respects, after you've left, it's almost as though you have to prove yourself worthy, before you get an invitation to rejoin the club.

I'm trying to stay positive, patient and persistent especially since it's only been a few weeks, but damn...it's hard.